Not that there are any followers out there to notice when I don't post, but August has been a monster of a month and there were zero chances to actually sit down and post. I am not usually one to make up excuses, but in this case it is the absolute truth!! In the last half of July and into the early part of August I was trying to switch cable companies....and that brings us to the middle of the month with internet gone and no hope of getting it back....oh what a mess!! I am back 'online' and so happy to be back....so now I have time to post a new blog about the things that have been happening in my little life since the last time I was here.
The saddest news I have is that my grandpa has been in the hospital for the last week and a half, and in that time I have come to realize the fragility of life and our positions in it. My grandpa is 91 and up until his recent admittance to hospital, has been living on his own, in his own home, since my grandma passed years ago. He was pretty much self-sufficient (other than the help that we gave him) and was happy to remain in that home until the day he died; that is no longer in the plans for him....and it make me sad.
I know that in his condition there is no way that he can go home and be "on his own", but I also know that he will be so disappointed as that is what he would truly like to do. It truly makes a person think about how fast life can change from what we know it to be in this moment; and believe me, the changes to my life have already shown me that to a certain degree, but nothing prepares you to watch your grandparents or parents have to leave their home and become less and less able to take care of themselves; and when faced with this situation I find myself realizing just how important my every moment is.
I am in love with my job of stay-at-home-mom, and now even more so because I know that the time I spend with my children can never be replaced. My daughter starts preschool this year and I am excited to be the "classroom mom" and to watch her grow and learn and become more independent; and I am learning to let go and appreciate that her independence is an important step on her journey through life. So many things happening all at the same time, and all of them give me more insight into life and the changes I need to make so that I can give my kid the best of me every day, because they deserve it and so do I.
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